Welcome to my soulfull* life.
The not so secret diary of an HSP-empath-ManiGen-trauma-healer-creative writer a deep feeling human woman.
My dear friends, ex-colleagues, clients, and clients about to be 🤞🏽. About a month ago, I remember thinking that the angel numbers I was receiving weren't really working. (If you’re not familiar with angel numbers, you’re welcome.)
What could possibly happen? I asked myself. Well…
On June 17th, my beloved Babi died. Two days after that, my work contract was terminated. My head full of funeral arrangements, hosting preparations at our flat, and my heart full of grief, I had turned up totally unprepared for what I thought was a routine weekly catch up call with my manager. I’ve heard how some companies let people go, but I’d never been let go before.
Foolishly, I thought that the HR rep was there for an introduction as we hadn’t met before. “How are you?,” my manager asked. Being the feeler that I am, I knew something was off and chose not to give a real answer, since there’s a time and a place for “Not great, my Babi just died.”
The thing is, that when faced with death, we also gain perspective. I couldn’t really focus on what I was being told, but later, as I sat with myself and sank into my deeper Knowing, I understood. It was the Universe pushing me to take another leap into deeper authenticity – and if I’m honest, a braver me would have done it sooner. But a stable income is very comfortable! Comfortable and dangerous, because it keeps us complacent and prevents us from reaching for our dreams.
Here are 3 lessons I was reminded of:
🌌 When we resist action, eventually the universe steps in
I’ve had this happen more than once in my life and it will probably happen again. The universe talks to us through our intuition, our higher-selves, and our bodies. Our felt experience contains so much wisdom. When we feel guidance, it’s important to follow it, or what we resist will persist. And honestly, it’s not fun when the universe has to step in. By then, it’s likely to be a more painful process to get us to learn the lessons we’ve been avoiding.
🎲 Certainty is an illusion and discomfort is a part of the game
If I had been able to believe earlier that I am more powerful than my fear of the unknown, I could have probably moved toward more healing and coaching work sooner. I could have leapt, but you see, there’d been no net to catch me. The truth is that if you’re waiting to know that you’ll have enough money, clients, or opportunities to do the new thing you want to do, you’ll be waiting forever. We never know, and that abyss is where we form our new, expanded selves.
☯️ We are energetic and spiritual beings
Sometimes, we just know things. We know them on a spiritual and energetic level, especially if we’re people who are open this way. I knew immediately that my Babi was dying. Before the staff, before anyone else. I knew this because I’m me and this is a part of my gift. I stayed with her the entire time, because I also knew, that it wouldn’t be long. I was there to help her with her transition; my mom and I held her hands, and I felt her spirit pass through – a sense of freedom, relief, and joy touched my soul as she left and I’m so glad that I could be there.
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Please don’t block or hate on your intuitive understanding, my friend! It can help build a truly amazing, soulfull life!
We’re meant to live authentically, and unfortunately, our world has become more and more disconnected. We do what society tells us, live by other people’s rules, and then often get burned out, disillusioned, or lost. This blog is here to remind you to live in alignment with your values, truths, and desires.
Unlock YOUR inner power, whatever that looks like. Unless it’s violent. Don’t do that.
Please be your beautiful version of weird. Please feel all of your feelings. Please share your enormous heart and the magic of this life. The world needs empathy, kindness, and heart-led leadership. We need acceptance, humour, and curiosity. And I believe that by returning to ourselves, we can live a more conscious, healthy life, build stronger relationships, and take better care of ourselves, each other, and the planet.
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Soulfull* – A highly unconventional yet rewarding path, often involving living fully, freely, sometimes in fear, and always out of love. May involve amazing adventures. Spiritual awakenings likely.